the girl whom GAVE UP

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THE BEST MODE ON!!!

Since I had moved on, I HAVE A VERY HIGH MODE ON... WHOM COULD TELL ME THAT I WOULD REALLY MOVE ON...

Well, at the age of 35, I AM ALMOST THERE, I CAN'T LOSE TIME WITH ANY MEN... I LOVE WOMEN AND FEMALES AND I AM A REAL LESBIAN... IN MY CULTURE, THEY WILL NEVER APPROVE... GUESS WHAT? WILL I END UP WITH A FEMALE? LOOOOOOOOOOOL AND LOOOOOOOOOOOOL... I DO NOT THINK SO... HOWEVER, I LOVE BLONDES... :)

I MOVED ON... I AM HAPPY, I FEEL GOOD AND I FEEL RELAXED...

I DO NOT STALK THEM BECAUSE I DO NOT LOVE THEM... IN THE PAST, I AM NOT SURE IF I LOVED THEM OR NO... INCLUDING THE BRAZILIAN GUY, I JUST LOOK AHEAD...

I WANT TO HAVE A GF... I AM DETERMINED AND I SHALL GET MY GOAL...

REGARDING THE GOAL ISSUE, I HAVE NO GOAL ABOUT WORKING... THAT SOUNDS GOOD... I HANDLED THAT ISSUE, TOO...

ABOUT THE ATLANTA COMPANY, THEY CAN MESSAGE ME THOUSAND TIMES, I WON'T GO TO OVERSEAS... 

OF COURSE, THEY WILL MESSAGE ME AGAIN...

I'M HAPPY IN TURKEY BECAUSE IT IS MY OWN COUNTRY...

THE END...

MOVING ON IS AN EXCELLENT WAY TO CLOSE ALL THE CONNECTIONS FOREVER...

ENTER INTO MY ASTRAL ZONE IF YOU CAN, BUT I WON'T PAY ATTENTION...

MY NEW OBSESSION IS THE SUBMISSIVE BITCH IN FIFTY SHADES OF GREY... THE BITCH DAUGHTER OF MILF MELANIE GRIFF...

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM,

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM,

ON ASTRAL, MY HANDS ARE ALL OVER ON HER...

SHALL I WHIP HER? 

ROFL....

BYE BABES...

This SHIT is fucking OVER!!!

The thing between us is OVER... He does not LEAVE ME though... HE HAS HIS SUSHI NEAR HIM, I HAVE NO ONE... Thus, I BROKE UP WITH HIM FOREVER... I SHALL NEVER MISS HIM BECAUSE AS HIS REAL IDENTITY HE NEVER LOVED ME!!! AS A JOHN GUY, HE PLAYED A BAD GAME, HE FALL IN LOVE WITH ME... I told him to watch out long ago... I PLAY GAMES WITH MANY ONES, TOO... HE WAS JUST AN ONLINE MUPPET!!! HE CAN KISS ME ALL OVER FROM THOUSANDS MILES, I MOVE ON!!!

I guess I TRULY GAVE UP... ABOUT MY EX, I GAVE UP TOO... COME ON, HE COULD HAVE RETURNED BACK TO ME ALL THESE YEARS... LIFE IS JUST SORROW FOR ME... Compared to others, I'M QUITE HAPPY IN MY OWN SAD WORLD!!! NO ONE IS WELCOME ANYMORE...

About this famous actor KEANU, I CAN'T DO ANYTHING... HE KEEPS TELLING ME HE LOVES ME, BUT HE IS TOO OLD FOR ME... THEN, I HOPE HE GIVES UP ON ME TOO... I DO NOT WANT TO REMEMBER EVEN OUR FIGHTS... OVERALL, WE BOTH FALL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER!!! I GUESS I WILL BE VERY CAUTIOUS IN MY NEW GAMES FROM NOW ON... LOL, LOL, LOL!!! THE GAMES SHALL CONTINUE...

I text a guy occasionally, IT SOUNDS LIKE WE ARE BF AND GF, TOO. BELIEVE ME THIS GAME IS HARMLESS... He texts me out of the blue, we are not friends nor lovers too... I DO NOT LIKE HIM THOUGH... HE GOT OBSESSED WITH ME!!! I GUESS WHEN WE INTERACT WITH PEOPLE, WE GET USED TO THEIR COMPANY SO BAD!!! WELCOME TO MY BITCHY WORLD..:) THEY ALL GET ADDICTED TO ME!!! OTHERWISE, REEVES WOULD NEVER GET ADDICTED, TOO...

Honestly, I AM A LIAR AND I NEVER WANT ANYONE CLOSER... THIS IS THE ONLY TRUTH BETWEEN MY LIES... FRANKLY, I LIKE TO BE A FREE SPIRIT AND PLAY GAMES... AS REEVES CONTINUES HIS GAMES WITH OTHERS, I WILL CONTINUE MY OWN GAMES WITH OTHERS, TOO...

LOOK, HE CROSSED THE BOUNDARIES TOO MUCH... HE THINKS THAT I'M HIS WIFE AND I GET SICK OF THIS SHIT... I AM NOT HIS WIFE BECAUSE I'M NOT PHYSICALLY WITH HIM AND I SHALL NEVER BE WITH HIM IN THIS LIFETIME, NEITHER THE NEXT ONE...

Byeeeeee....

Going for a WALK AND IF HE KISSES ME, I WON'T KISS HIM BACK MORE!!!!

Impossible to FORGET!!!

Hey folks!!! Let us pin down the issue of moving on again...I struggle for years to have another BOYFRIEND... However, it is not possible for me to have ANOTHER BF anymore... Literally, I GAVE UP... I love my EX BF SO MUCH... I GET IRRITATED TO BE TOUCHED BY ANOTHER GUY!!! I wonder how does he really feel? It looks like he will never find another GF, as well... Maybe, he became a GAY!!! We never communicate with each other...Therefore, it is hard to know what he has been through LATELY. I GIVE NO FUCK ANYWAY!!! LOL, LOL, LOL!!!
I can't be with another guy... I HAD SEVERAL ATTEMPTS... IT GOES NOWHERE... I WANT HIM BACK SO MUCH, THE UNIVERSE DOES NOT GIVE HIM BACK... FUCK UNIVERSE!!! UNIVERSE GIVES MANY MEN TO MANY BITCHES... CUNTSSSSSSSSSSSS, CUNTSSSSSSSSSSS, CUNTSSSSSSSSSSSSS, CUNTSSSSSSSSSS....

OMG!OMG!OMG! I LOSE MY CONTROL AGAIN AND I DO LOVE IT!!!! I do not want to MARRY anyone. I do not want to DATE anyone... I JUST WANT MY EX BF BACK!!! I SHALL NEVER MOVE ON... I ADMIT THAT HE MOVES ON, BUT HE IS ALWAYS ALONE AND SINGLE... He thinks that I'm a monster... He hates ME... However, he COULD NOT HANDLE MY BEING CRAZY... HE COULD NOT HANDLE MY MOOD SWINGS, TOO... He handled ONLY TO KISS ME AND TOUCH ME... THAT WAS HIS REAL REASON TO STAY WITH ME... WE NEVER MADE LOVE... OBVIOUSLY, ONCE I WAS TRYING TO TOUCH HIS PUBIC AREAS, HE STOPPED ME!!! I WAS TRYING TO TURN THE LITTLE BASTARD ON!!! HE GOT SCARED... LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL, LOOOOOOOOOL, LOOOOOOOOL...:):):):)

We used to KISS A LOT... HE WAS NOT LETTING MY LIPS GO... I WAS TELLING HIM TO STOPPPPPPPPPPP... LOOOOOOOOOOOL, LOOOOOOOOOL, LOOOOOOOL... THAT WAS QUITE EROOOOOOOOOOOO-TIC AND FUN!!! I WAS KISSING HIM LIKE A LUNATIC GIRL, HE WAS ENJOYING IT!!! OBVIOUSLY, WE BOTH LOVED EACH OTHER... WE HAD AN AMAZING CHEMISTRY... I CAN'T CATCH SUCH A CHEMISTRY WITH ANY OTHER GUY... I AM NOT WILLING TO GIVE IT A TRY WITH MORE GUYS ANYMORE... WHEN I TRY, I FEEL MY EX AROUND ME... I FEEL SICK... I FEEL SAD... I CAN'T TUNE INTO THE TOUCH OR KISS OF ANOTHER GUY... FUCKKKKKKKKKK ITTTTTTTTTTT....

When we were kissing each other, it was completely a different FEELING... I CAN'T GET OVER HIM SINCE 12 YEARS... Apparently, he can't forget about me, but he moves on his life... I WANT TO BE WITH HIM FOREVER... I WANT TO KISS HIM AS I USED TO... I HAVE A CRAZY FANTASY ABOUT HIM... I WANT TO UNDRESS HIM AND I WANT TO BE ON TOP OF HIM... OH BOYYYYYYYYY, THIS IS MY MALE AND DOMINANT ENERGY!!! I LOVE IT!!! I WOULD LIKE TO USE HANDCUFFS ON HIM TO SEDUCE HIM AND PLAY WITH HIM... THERE IS NO HOPE... NO ONE RETURNS... THERE ARE ONLY WILD FANTASIES...

I CAN'T MOVE ON, BUT I TAKE ADVANTAGE OF KEANU'S SEXUAL ENERGY TO PRETEND THAT I MOVE ON... BELIEVE ME, IT DOES NOT SATISFY ME AT ALL. HOWEVER, IT MAKES ME TO BE OCCUPIED SEXUALLY WITH SOMEONE ELSE... ON A SPIRITUAL DIMENSION, I KISS KEANU AND I GET HAPPY ABOUT THAT... IN REALITY, I WANT TO KISS MY EX... I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO MORE ABOUT MY EX ISSUE, BUT I SERIOUSLY CONSIDER TO EXPLORE A FEMALE'S BODY TO MOVE ON FROM MY EX... I AM NOT SO SURE YET... LOL, LOL, LOL, LOL!!!

OVERALL, I am crazy for my EX, but not for REEVES!!! IT IS NOT THE SAME FEELING... WOULD I WISH TO UNDRESS REEVES, TOO? NOPE, NEVER... I ONLY WANT TO UNDRESS MY EX BF!!! IF GOD LOVES MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, I KNOW HE WILL GIVE HIM BACK ONE DAY.... IT IS A CHILDISH LOVE, BUT LOVE IS THERE... IMAGINE THAT I UNDRESS THE LITTLE BASTARD, OMG... I FEELLLLLLLL GOODDDDDDDDDD!!!

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS MY MOOD SWINGS... FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK LIFEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

MOVING ON IN NEXT LIFE!!!!

BYE-BYE!!!

The issue of Letting Go

Most of the people can move on their lives easily... Imagine that a married couple or life partners whom have been together even more than 10 years have the CAPABILITY TO face with the BREAKDOWN of their togetherness... However, people who have a low self-esteem are the VICTIMS of moving on from ANYONE whom comes to their lives... I know that it really sounds HORRIBLE... Honestly, it has been 12 years and I still could not MOVE ON FROM MY EX BF... Does that make me really a NUTTY PERSON? I guess so!!! How come a person can still love someone whom will never return back? It happens... Look, life is a LESSON... Whatever the lesson is, we need to LEARN IT!!! However, I also started to grow very deep feelings for another DICK MAN... YEAH, THE ONE, known as NEO! FUCK HIM!!! I can't move on from THIS KEANU since 4 years, too... I am very sorry but how come I love BOTH DIFFERENT MEN at the same time? It happens... No one believes that I love both of them due to the fact that they are judgmental... They are telling me that I love ONLY ONE... EITHER MY EX OR THE JOHN DICK HEADED!!! I am telling that I LOVE BOTH... Maybe I love MY EX BF more, but time to time I love NEO FUCKER MORE... This is really like a bucket of SHIT... IT does not HURT because I do not get HURT anymore... I got USED TO FEEL THIS WAY...

Well, AM I READY FOR THE THIRD ONE? THAT IS A FUCKING IDIOTIC QUESTION... HOW CAN I BE READY FOR THE THIRD MAN? It's a MESS...It's like reading a book that has NO HAPPY ENDING... I STILL LOVE SUCH A BOOK THOUGH... What is the real reason I DO NOT MOVE ON FROM THESE GUYS? I DO NOT COMPREHEND IT... I can not commit to ANYONE in my life... I can not get physically close to ANYONE in my life... Then, how can I manage to HAVE FEELINGS FOR THEM? I only KNOW ONE THING: I REALLY LOVE THEM BOTH... IT CHANGES A LOT... EVERYDAY, I HATE THEM AND I LOVE THEM... LOL!!!

If you are a freak, you can experience such a TRAUMATIC suffering... If it is really a SUFFERING, WHY ONE SHOULD STAND ON SUCH A SUFFERING? What's the point? As I told before, IT TEACHES ME A VERY GOOD LESSON. I am just struggling to learn the LESSON... I RESIST NOT TO LEARN AND I CONTINUE TO SUFFER...

Third one will come... I feel he will come... I do not know when he will come... Love will find me AGAIN.... I DO NOT LOOK FOR LOVE, IT FINDS ME AND IT FUCKS ME UP... IT FUCKS MY EMOTIONS... I AM NEVER BALANCED AND I GET WORSE... The third man will make me LOVE HIM MUCH? I have no idea, IT DEPENDS ON HIS EFFORT... The third one should try maybe more than 4 years to BE WITH ME PSYCHICALLY OR TO MAKE ME OPENED UP TOWARDS HIM... FUCK THE THIRD ONE, AS WELL...

I just would like to know that if the third one can CHOOSE ME AS A PARTNER... The others could not CHOOSE ME... They were mummies' BOYS! They were INSECURE AND CHILDISH AND SO WEAK AND THEY NEVER HAD ANY REAL MANLY SKILLS... The third one can be a very STRONG MAN... Or, the third one can be as others... Then, here the dilemma starts again... IT WILL BE THE SAME FUCKING EXPERIENCE... Welcome to the USELESS LIST OF MEN... WELCOME TO MY WORLD... The universe gives US what we do not LOOK FOR... In my culture, there is an AWESOME saying as follows: " The third one has the CHARM!!!" LOL! I like to LIE MYSELF A LOT...:)

I guess I won't be ABLE TO SETTLE DOWN... I am not in a hurry to SETTLE DOWN, but whomever I WANT TO BE TOGETHER, THEY GIVE ME NO CHANCE... THEY LOVE ME MUCH... THEY CARE ABOUT ME MUCH IN THEIR OWN WEIRD WAYS, BUT THAT IS ALL... I DO NOT MOVE ON... Obviously, I won't be able to MOVE ON till I meet someone ELSE... It can happen in 10 years time... I guess I NEED TO HEAL MY WOUNDS... I learned that one person CAN NEVER MAKE YOU FORGET the OTHER ONE at all... Then, why DO OTHERS MOVE ON? What is the real reason for me to have no CAPACITY TO MOVE ON? I do not know IT... I JUST WANT ONE OF THESE MEN TO SHOW UP AND COME TO ME... THEY ARE BOTH USELESS... THEY ARE BOTH SINGLE... ONE FUCKS AROUND ONLINE AND DATES AROUND... OTHER ONE HAS NO GF, NEVER DATES... THEY ARE BOTH NOT A GOOD CHOICE... 

IF LOVE REALLY EXISTS BETWEEN ME AND THEM, HOW COME IT CAN NOT UNITE US AT ALL? I THINK THIS IS A VERY VERY SENSITIVE QUESTION TO CONSIDER ABOUT... When someone is not your favor, UNIVERSE NEVER GIVES YOU THAT PERSON... You may regard universe as a GOD, as well.. I am a nonbeliever and a REAL ATHEIST!!! So, I do not think that GOD DOES NOT GIVE ME THESE MEN TO PROTECT ME... I feel that universe does not GIVE THESE MEN to me because IT WON'T WORK WITH THEM... Then, TO BE HONEST, I AM FINE ALONE... I CAN LOVE THEM... I KNOW THEY BOTH LOVE ME... HOW CAN I BE SURE? IF YOU ARE A GENUINE PSYCHIC, YOU CAN BE VERY SURE...

LOVE IS NOT THE ANSWER FOR ME, NEITHER FOR THEM... MOVING ON IS NOT WHAT I WANT... Thus, I won't MOVE ON FROM THESE FUCKERS... I AM OBSESSED WITH BOTH OF THEM AND I WANT BOTH OF THEM SO MUCH... ONE DAY, I WANT ONE MORE THAN THE OTHER... THEN, PEOPLE ASK ME MANY TIMES WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT LOVE? FUCK LOVE DEARIES... LOVE IS LONELINESS... LOVE IS MELANCHOLY AND LOVE IS SUFFERING... THEREFORE, THAT IS THE REAL LOVE... 

Love Expert...

PS: I might continue to give LECTURES about moving on... If I MOVE ON, I WILL STILL THINK ABOUT THEM AND HAVE A FUCK WITH THE THIRD ONE... I CAN IMAGINE THEM WHILE FUCKING THE THIRD... YEAH, I TOLD YOU FUCKERS... I'M NASTY AND VERY NAUGHTY...:)

LOVE IS IN OUR HEARTS... LOVE IS GOLDEN, LOVE IS LOVE... LOVE IS WHAT I NEVER LOOK FOR... 

WHERE ARE YOU THE THIRD ONE? :) LOOOOOOOL LOOOOOOOOOOL LOOOOL!!!!

Hope, you all LEARNED SOMETHING FROM my perspective TOWARDS THE ISSUE OF Moving ON!!!

All the Best Fuckers...